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PostSubject: My Inspiration   Tue Aug 28, 2007 1:58 am

I wrote a story one night before I went to bed, I thought it would help everyone here understand me more, I accept constructive criticism so say anything you want *My favorite teacher at my new school says its crap =( but the teacher mentioned below wouldn't*


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So, I was trying to talk to god last night and as I started talking I realized something. I lost touch with my spirituality. Now that might sound weird but ever since I got a clue to my personal legend, I became engulfed in finding it on my own. Now the way I see it, what I really want right now is not to travel... but to find a new world.

They say the grass is always greener on the other side, but I don’t fully believe that. For me, its not so much opportunities are hard to come by, but they’re hard for me to grasp. So things for me tend to not go so well when I put my life on autopilot. Its not like I can’t "Steer" anywhere but I don’t want to "drive" in this world.

I decided I want to find a new world. What brought me to the descion of finding a new world is 3 things. One, a special teacher. Two, a special book. And Three, a special friend. At the time I didn't notice it but Shima was preparing me for pursuing my personal legend. He, through music, taught me how to be myself.

On the first day of school I found out that 9th period I had a psychology class with one of the schools toughest teachers. As you can guess I wasn’t very excited. This class seemed tough, Monday through Wednesday we watched a movie and then Thursday and Friday we wrote and essay on it. I learned more then the essence of film in that class, I learned I can be comfortable in school and things aren’t as hard when you break them down. Most of all I learned people care about me and that I can control my destiny. I finally felt like I could lead my life.

When I found out I had to go to residential school, I tried not to care. But my teacher saw right through it. She decided for a final project I should read a book, The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho, this book changed my life. It made me feel like I have a purpose. Oh and if your wondering what this book is about that’s so amazing, the only word that can describe it... It’s about Life.

That may have been what awoke my passion for a new world, but I was not prepared. An old friend solved that problem. I met Shima while playing M&M, he helped me my first day and I wanted to join his guild... but he disappeared. Two weeks later when I quit my guild I saw him and asked to join .:Gazette:. . When I joined Shima showed me the forums, the banner looked like girls so I said, "Wow they're hot" and he said, "Dude those are guys..." for the next week I questioned my sexuality. I came to the conclusion I'm not gay, but Gazette looks like really hot chicks Wink. I listened to their music and fell in love with the song reila. For the next year I went on what I call, my neo Goth quest.

"The Neo Goth Quest" really taught me how to accept myself and stand up for myself. Shima had shown me I should do what I want and not care what people thought. Problem was.. I started this in residential School where they try to make you conform. He also showed me a life was not worth wasting. Which inspired me to get off my Prozac. After being off my Prozac even for a day, my suicidal thoughts stopped, most people didn’t believe it did but I can’t even think of ways to die. Self-acceptance led me to want to pursue my life.... thanks to Shima.

So finally ending this makes me feel closer to god. I want to thank her for letting me meet these people. I know I will meet more people who will help me on my path to my personal legend, so I'm keeping my eye on a few people who I think are inspiring.

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PostSubject: Re: My Inspiration   Tue Aug 28, 2007 11:41 am

the story of your life....I am sorry but this is will help me to make one of our song;) like I am alway saying man I am proud of you!

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PostSubject: Re: My Inspiration   Tue Aug 28, 2007 1:43 pm

Heh Why apologize.... but thats not the story of my life, I'd say theres alot about me you dont know.... but I've told you.......... actually I bugged out in a chat room at 5:30 AM cause someone brought shit up by accident

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PostSubject: Re: My Inspiration   Tue Aug 28, 2007 2:34 pm

Ganbatte ne!
life is too short to be wasted..
so let's cherish time&pursue whatever we want in life!
and not let life slip by us Very Happy
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off topic : you play M&M? I PLAY IT TOO! XD
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PostSubject: Re: My Inspiration   Tue Aug 28, 2007 5:29 pm

come on:P summer! I lended him the guild .:GaZeTTe:. Razz me I am coming back when my internet will stop to be such a moronXD

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PostSubject: Re: My Inspiration   Tue Aug 28, 2007 5:39 pm

Ganbatte ne?

Yes I played for a while... havent lately, its hard to play while in boarding school

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PostSubject: Re: My Inspiration   Tue Aug 28, 2007 5:51 pm

ganbatte ne mean work hard!!Very Happy

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PostSubject: Re: My Inspiration   Tue Aug 28, 2007 5:55 pm

I will! I swear *crosses fingers* *Hears them breaking* OWWWWWWWWWW

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PostSubject: Re: My Inspiration   Tue Aug 28, 2007 6:07 pm

and dying?? wtf is that kind of shit aoi?? stay alife!!! baka-.-

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PostSubject: Re: My Inspiration   Wed Aug 29, 2007 2:20 pm

LOL.. bandage those fingers like how Reita did in NLSG :X
i didnt play MnM alot >_<!!!
whats your nick!
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PostSubject: Re: My Inspiration   Wed Aug 29, 2007 7:45 pm

Dying? Me? Wtf? *So confused*

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PostSubject: Re: My Inspiration   Thu Aug 30, 2007 12:17 am

I am joking....he's nickname is Yoyoto

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PostSubject: Re: My Inspiration   Thu Aug 30, 2007 1:51 am

*Still lost*

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PostSubject: Re: My Inspiration   Mon Sep 03, 2007 3:07 pm

OH YOYOTO!!!
OK I KNW WHO
xD EHEHE Very Happy
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PostSubject: Re: My Inspiration   Tue Sep 04, 2007 1:16 am

*Still lost*

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PostSubject: Re: My Inspiration   Wed Sep 05, 2007 12:32 am

XD hi Yoyoto!!!
i play MnM too :XXXXX *okays said that before*
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PostSubject: Re: My Inspiration   Wed Sep 05, 2007 8:11 pm

trying to get my accounts to work ATM

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PostSubject: Re: My Inspiration   Sat Sep 08, 2007 5:53 pm

but i quit MnM alrdy xD
its too much of an afk-ing game, that it gets boring&lifeless >_<
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PostSubject: Re: My Inspiration   Sat Sep 08, 2007 6:39 pm

See I like that, it lets me not have to worry about leveling *Cough*WoW* and I can get to end game fast, ofcourse then I can also reset and start over going slowly

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PostSubject: Re: My Inspiration   Wed Sep 12, 2007 6:05 pm

quite true, its like the only game you can set your mind at ease..
knowing you can accomplish everything with the bots doing every single stuff for you.
the PK part is >;D
heh fun :X
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PostSubject: Re: My Inspiration   Fri Sep 14, 2007 12:18 am

yeah but since there are no updates anymore It makes me sad, SO I applied for the Crazy Tao testing

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PostSubject: Re: My Inspiration   Fri Sep 14, 2007 3:02 pm

there isnt?
but there are new pets arent there..
wads Crazy Tao..
a new game? @_@?
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PostSubject: Re: My Inspiration   Mon Sep 24, 2007 12:21 am

yeah a game with the same kind of monster...but more childrish...oh and sis...check in your preference for attack your sig

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PostSubject: Re: My Inspiration   Sun Oct 14, 2007 1:00 am

Its pretty lame, I'm back to WoW now XD WoW FTW

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